BLOG Blood and guts. My most open post yet. Money, money, money. Before I get into this blog it is important you don't read it as the "world's smallest violin" or "poor little Bernie" crap things happen, no one made me do anything and yes it all gets too much at quite a few points. Don't get too excited - it does not end well. So around the time twitter hit the Internet I rolled into my local small business advice centre to "start a business." The key here is that I had no fucking idea what I wanted to start, no plan, no history
BLOG Working out loud 4.1 - Steven Pressfield: Overcoming Resistance Part one. Ok so now I am a day behind. I am not feeling so Super Hero. I have like, 10 minutes to writ this post and zoom out the door to get #babybernie. I hardly saw him yesterday and I can't wait to see him! Also what is it with 2 year olds that they HATE getting dressed? The way he screams sometimes makes me feel like a Nazi concentration camp scientist sawing into a live body while calmly taking notes. Yesterdays update did not get posted and now quite conveniently it won't load. (I'll get this l
BLOG A time machine would be great today... Working Out Loud Day Two Yesterday I mentioned (and hoped no-one had noticed) about working out loud. Actually I don't give a rats arse if you read this or not, this is my commitment to myself and putting my balls on the line. There are so many places to start. I really don't want to write and publish this as it is in direct conflict with my HUGE plans yesterday. But it is the truth. Which often hurts. ANYWAY... 1. It is 15:25 here in the UK and I have only just switched on my computer. 'Sensible me' is SCREAMING 'ch
BLOG Working Out Loud Part One I keep starting this post, well I don't. I think about it all the time. I have not sat down and started writing it until now. Actually it is not so much a post rather a "declaration of living" - Which means? It seems that every post I write here can be... "what a crap day" - I am still going to write some more of them, hells teeth it is fun to slit your wrists on line.....;-) Actually it is the release and honesty of sharing my drivel here that is the most rewarding. Some people have just st
BLOG #LBMlive you heard it here last. Just when I had thought all was lost I find myself transfixed at London Bloggers Meet Up. You'll know that this year my head has been moving in 6 different directions this year. In fact large chunks of this year have been the crappest ever for me mentally. Tonight, listening to the room full of people fired me back just at the right moment. I was not even feeling particularly down, I am just burnt out and knackered after a year of feeling particularly down. Around this time last year I was in
BLOG Are we there yet? I have been talking about blogging ALL WEEK and have not written a word. (Warning: this is going to be quick and dirty and probably won't make much sense) ANYWAY Last week I had what is a "break though" session at therapy, I made a connection between tones of stuff, from 9 areas of life that shone a light on blocks and barriers in er, my being. (Did that sound Woody Allen enough?) It is nearly a year since I noticed my head falling apart and went to see the Doctor. The last few weeks I have
Audio Leadership With Simon Sinek: Serving Those Who Serve Others Simon Sinek is on of the few people who consistently "knocks it out the park" for me when it comes to business and how we handle people. I have ranted about "Start with the Why" for a few years and it really hit a note with many people in my tribe, both those who freelance and those who work in big corporations. The conversation is still going which is testament to Sinek's insights. In this interview with Jonathan Fields, Simon compares GE and Costco and the relationship between shareholder va
BLOG I cheated on my wife. I need to come clean. I cheated on my wife. Over the last few weeks this blog has been a place to bear my soul and I think it is only right to be totally honest with you. my reader. I have been stopped in so many areas of my life recently as I learn to live with this injustice. I am behind on my own blog, launching my web course, making the show notes for London Bloggers Meet Up and doing the washing up. I lie awake at night in a cold sweat. How it all started I am still trying to work out how it happened, Februa
BLOG Life is like a bowl of chocolates and this is where the pain is. I was going sit on this for ages. I have been sitting on it for about 13 years now so a few more minutes would not seem to make any difference. But they have. Ever since I bounced out of my therapy session this morning I have not been able think about anything else. I have waited years to make this connection. Sometimes therapy is really mentally draining, I know I want to get somewhere but "the ghost" is digging it's heels in and is mentally exhausting. Kind of like when you have a 2 yea
BLOG Sing when you are winning! There is a new struggle today. But I am alert and winning.Yesterday was epic, I kept on track and productive all day. I planned my time, tasks and energy.It went a bit wrong at the end, I lost track of time and ended up getting home late. Dead goodHowever, at the end of the day I felt tired and accomplished, over the last few months at a similar time of day I'd felt like killing myself (not that I ever would, I am far to anxious for that.) Usually my head would be ringing, I'd see no way out, I
