> ## Content Index > Fetch the complete content index at: https://berniejmitchell.com/llms.txt > Use this file to discover other available public pages before exploring further. # Now I Think I Know What I Am Doing - URL: https://berniejmitchell.com/now-i-think-i-know-what-i-am-doing/ - Published: 2017-06-18T22:09:03.000Z - Updated: 2017-06-18T22:09:03.000Z - Author: Bernie J Mitchell - Tags: BLOG, London, Meet Up, 12 Week Year, coworking, OuiShare, #Babybernie, #Migrated-1772907944273, #wp, #wp-post, #Import 2026-03-07 18:26 **Somewhere earlier in this blog, I wrote about [12 Weeks being agony](https://berniejmitchell.com/copy-bernie-news-oct-10th-2/) and often this makes me think what was happening before.** Life has never been so good. Hang on, stick with me. You won't need a sick bucket for this bit. **It is just not so manic now.** 'Manic' is a word used out of context; I have a few close friends who are bipolar and manic has a whole different meaning for them. Where I grew up in Essex people would often say 'Mate. It's £ucking MANIC down at Lakeside Shopping Centre today!' To one of my friends 'manic' meant hardly sleeping for a couple of years while they completed a PhD with flying colours in record time. Then they crashed. Down. Massively, into the other end of manic. **Now I have been up here for a while.** When I got to week six of this [12 Week Year ](https://amzn.to/2thGAdF?ref=berniejmitchell.com)run I went wobbly.I wanted to be strong and stable, but I wobbled. It all seemed to be working, and I felt shit. It was because everything had started to work and inside a part of me was unprepared for this. The job of that part for YEARS had been to hold back and fuel self-destruction. In the last few weeks, I have had to perform 'change management' on myself and then realised I was on my way through what Kelly and Conner call '[The Emotional Cycle of Change](https://www.mindtools.com/pages/article/kelley-conner-cycle.htm?ref=berniejmitchell.com)', which is detailed in the [12 Week Year book](https://amzn.to/2thGAdF?ref=berniejmitchell.com). **The cycle has five stages:** Stage 1: Uninformed optimism. Stage 2: Informed pessimism. Stage 3: Hopeful realism. Stage 4: Informed optimism. Stage 5: Completion. My current area is Stage Four. Which sounds great but I find hard to know what to do, even with all the tools my 'Bernie belt' and support of [@WorkHubs](https://www.atworkhubs.co.uk/podcast/se2e6/?ref=berniejmitchell.com) around me. Being at the informed optimism stage means I know enough, which means for right now I don't need to find out anything else. **Let me explain that a little bit more.** For the next couple of weeks, there can be no new moving parts, however attractive. Then after [OuiShare Fest in Paris](https://paris.ouisharefest.com/?ref=berniejmitchell.com), the next 12 Weeks begins, and I have already decided to work deeper into what I am doing now. Between [Meet Up's we run @WorkHubs](https://goo.gl/NRQfWP?ref=berniejmitchell.com), apps and gadgets and [Fizzle](https://fizzle.co/friends?aid=15637&utm%5Fsource=aid%5F15637&utm%5Fmedium=referral&utm%5Fcampaign=fzmbr) and [Authority ](https://my.copyblogger.com/join-authority/?ref=berniejmitchell.com) I don't need to look anywhere else. **There is joy in repetition and life is urgent** For sixty episodes Phil and I have gleefully pulled together the @WorkHubs podcast, and the title of the post you are reading comes from the episode this week - [Not So Manic Now](https://www.atworkhubs.co.uk/podcast/se2e6/?ref=berniejmitchell.com). It's inspired by the combination of the song by Dubstar, the last few weeks of terror attacks, election terror and Glenfall Tower. I also read Brendon Cox's book about [his wife Jo Cox](https://amzn.to/2sg6zEd?ref=berniejmitchell.com), which has inspired over [100K street parties and get together's](https://www.greatgettogether.org/?ref=berniejmitchell.com) across the UK in the last few days. Brendon's story had me walking around with a lump the size of an elephant in the back of my throat as I choked back the tears. I downloaded it from Audible when I got back from the local street party near @WorkHubs in Euston.