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# Make something of it!
- URL: https://berniejmitchell.com/make-something-of-it/
- Published: 2013-09-24T13:44:00.000Z
- Updated: 2013-09-24T13:44:00.000Z
- Author: Bernie J Mitchell
- Tags: BLOG, #Migrated-1772907944273, #wp, #wp-post, #Import 2026-03-07 18:26

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**Bollox, here we go again.** 

**The way I am feeling right now this will be a sad, sad, read.** 

  
In fact it is really daring of me and the main reason I am writing is quite possibly so the both of you that read this will come and punch me in the face and say "just get on with it Mitchell".

  
I have been using up at least 30% of my head space thinking about whether to share about this or not.

**So I decided to share.**  
  
Yesterday I did two events and one went BRILLIANTLY and the other one I died at.

Not even died like I comedian on stage (which I have done) I died because of negative feedback the day after.

I had banter with the crowd and thought it went ok and this person thought I was patronising.

  
Which filled me with a double dose of horror as I go out of my way to "not be patronising" - which is probably how I end up being patronising.

  
They said I was ill prepared, which I was, I knew what I wanted to talk about but was still messing around with my [Haiku Deck Slides](https://www.haikudeck.com/?ref=berniejmitchell.com) just before I went on. 

  
I have been staring at [Trello](https://trello.com/berniejmitchell/recommend?ref=berniejmitchell.com) and the project I am working on and all I can think about is this feedback. Now I am MAD at myself for taking it to heart. 

  
The thing is that I ASK for feedback and I am crystal clear this is how you get better, I even said in my talk about how you really need to ask people a few times to get out of them what they really think. 

**Make something of it**

So what I am really pissed about is that I am making something of it. I have always "had this" but at the moment unless I take dramatic action (like blog out loud) this becomes an all consuming, negative energy. 

It is not the "criticism" or "honesty" that kills me, it is some over-exaggerated sense of letting people down. 

Which of course means I spend time I don't have wallowing in what ever I am wallowing and then let the next person down.

**What I want to make of it**

Is to take the feedback and plough it into what is going on now, use it to improve, which I know is the sensible thing to do, and I have done in the past.

  
On an intellectual level I am great with this - in reality (in case you did not guess) it kills me.

I am not asking you "not to be beastly to me" far from it. 

What I want to get my head round is standing away from the drama and negative energy that slows me down. 

  
**On being depressed**

This "being depressed" thing is a short term thing, maybe I will always struggle with it but I am certainly not going to let it stop me living life. 

  
I have a particularly super amazing wife and child to go on adventures with (we have had many already). 

  
I am so not up for lying around and licking my wounds all day. As I am writing this two things occur to me. 

I need to start running again, Mike and Chris have both shouted about this being a good combat method. I don't want to go running because I will find out how fit I am not, I used to be really good - to find out I am a "fat Uncle" might be too much to take, well of course it is not. 

  
Getting back up on the horse - I am about to flee 90Mainyard and go to lead a panel on community. I am paranoid after last night. 

Paranoid I am sure is bollox, especially as I know it will be great fun. Silly me! 

  
Thanks for reading!

Sorry to moan ;-)

  
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