“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness.”
As you can imagine it took me ages to come up with that beginning.
There are two things to share with you this week and one of them is an ask.
Here he reports and promotes women’s rugby in Spain, it is the number ONE women’s rugby site in the Spanish language.
Diego had his HUGE sports lens stolen from him as he reported on a women’s rugby in Madrid, Spain.
The lens is kinda essential for the project and this is not a paid job, it’s a passion project.
Enter #Supercoolwife (his sister and my wife) who instigated a
$1500 crowdfunding campaign to buy a replacement lens. Thing Two. 12 Week Year blues.
Last week was a living in my head hell in my
12 Week Year mission. This is a deep share rather than a moan.
As I continue to track what I do it turns out that I am doing less of what I thought I was doing.
It is £u<king scary how time has shot by in the last nine weeks, the time where I thought I was razor sharp focused on important work goals and, er I was not.
What depressed me is realising how much time I must have just spunked up the wall over the years.
It’s not all bad
Feeling sorry for myself is sure way back to depression and I’m not going there again.
But yet, my habit and comfort zone is to assign fragments of my past mistakes to what is happening right now.
Of course, this is dumb and energy zapping, so why would I do it?
Because I have dedicated years of building up this skill and to let all that go would be admitting I was wrong and making a change.
JFDI
I am making it, even more kicking and screaming that I am letting out here. It is huge for me to realise this and pluck up the balls to smack feeling sorry myself in the mouth and step into the next stage of life.
This last year has been exiting depression, straddling the gap between proper depression and feeling sorry for myself and is now in an energising JFDI mode which is painful in spurts, in the way I imagine a good game of rugby to be.
Hit reply and let me know what you’re working on this week!
Thanks for reading and have a remarkable week!
Love Bernie